Downturn Over and Over, Then Again~~~

Surely with Difficulty is Ease, with Difficulty Surely Ease.

Downturn. Simple but hard to swallow.
Another life experience worth learning.

Back to the memory lane, still fresh in my mind, looking my Father no longer come home with his shining car, cycled around the town looking for the future end meets, and spent most of the time mowing the backyard, growing vegetables and many natural food stocks. Which as an innocent and ignorance child, it is just a perfect life having our old man busy time at home, spending most of the evening with us, what a blessing.

Downturn.

At the same period of time, I have being attending first year of school, which school being highly spoken among the community.

Again, as an innocent and ignorance child, I am still wandering what school is for? Just another routine that everyone go through at age of 7? Or it is just another playground for kind of people aging 7-12? Every single moment at that time the questions keep spinning in my mind until my mid year result, after approximately 5 months of school, and yahoo, it is school break!!! Play time with me bro all day all night long!!!

One cold night, my mother wish to clean my school bag, while I am pretending reading a dictionary, out of sudden she came to me and asked, "what is this?" Showing a blue booklet with my name on it, and I just said, "I don't know..."

Actually the question is rhetoric, it is my academic report booklet which my teacher asked us to hand it to our parents for review and signature, to be returned om the first day of school after the break.
Well, I even not knowing at that time it supposed to be returned.

Then, another question came in, "Do you understand the examination questions?"
What??? What jargon is she using now? Talking aliens...?

After being explained on the meaning of  examination, then I realised, there's a day when one of my teachers scolded me madly after learning I am still keeping examination papers since day one of the exams, and yet at that time, sincerely I do not understand what is she saying.
Believe that she tried to contact my parents but when I being asked on contact information, the answer is my house does not have any telephone.

Yeah, at that time, we never have telephone since the recession stroke, for years until fully recovered. Totalling of 6 years using telephone booth.

Downturn.

Keep story shorter, my father made me a laugh stock in our family reunion on that weekend at my grandparents house all night long. I am confused.

The next day, after having my breakfast, he called me. Showing a piece of empty paper and standing in front of a whiteboard, asking me to spell whatever he said. And the result.... nothing is right.
This make us realised that I am having the inability to read and write in Romans, in other word Malay or English.

In present days, whenever I look back at my early school life, I did realized that I am not able to learn from and work with a person that totally play by the book entirely, without using the book as leverage for solving any issues. The worst, using the books and records to implement the blame-blame method. Annoyed. Not work, just politics.

I did manage to read in two weeks after the "Fathery" test which the teachers being given the opportunity to made me proficient in 5 months.

Downturn brought my father home and tested him with unemployment plus my inability to read. It is difficult. Enlightening his own son with the key skill of the knowledge, and that surely lifetime satisfaction.

Today, and for the entire of my life, feeling grateful to the Almighty Wisdom, having my father present at the right time, right place.

"Surely with Difficulty is Ease, with Difficulty Surely Ease."
(94: 5-6)